Sandie Simply Says

March 30, 2009

Depression and HASAY don’t mix

Filed under: HAYSAY,Italy,Weight Loss — by Sandie @ 5:36 am
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The other day I was gathering information about our move to Italy. The more I looked, the more depressed I got.

I know all the good things about this move: it’ll be a great experience for my kids. Professionally it’ll be a great move as I’m almost guaranteed to get promoted out of it. If we play our cards right, we should come home debt free and with some extra money in the bank.

But as I was sitting and looking at the pictures of the smiling kids at the elementary school, I couldn’t help but think “That’s not my kids’ school.”

As I drive around town here, I get teary thinking of all the things I’ll miss here. And one thing is clear to me, all the good things that will come out of this assignment don’t outweigh the one bad thing: I’ll have to leave what has come to be my home.

What’s funny, is if you’d told me I’d feel this way when we first moved here, I would have laughed at you. Now, 8 years later, I’ve finally found a place I could grow some roots. I’ve lived here longer than anywhere in my adult life. Heck, I’ve lived here longer than I’ve lived anywhere IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!

I’m sure I’ll whine about this a few more times before we actually leave. And I’m sure once we actually make the move, I’ll be wondering what I was freaking out about. But for now, I’m wallowing in my sorrows over it. And trying hard to get my heart and mind in the right place before we leave.

Oh and I am totally counting this as my HASAY post today. I spent most of my week walking around in a haze of depression. First because we weren’t sure Tony would be joining me in Italy. And then because he WOULD be. And when I get depressed, I eat. And I did exactly that this week. I ate. And I ate. And then I ate some more.

I also made a decision. I’ve decided that the number on the scale is what bothers me. It’s the not being in shape that bothers me. So, my new plan is to commit myself to an exercise program while watching what I eat. We’ll see how that works for me!

March 6, 2009

My crazy up-and-down week

Filed under: General — by Sandie @ 9:23 pm
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Well, more downs that up really. 😦

Monday: I find out about my assignment to Italy late Monday afternoon.

Tuesday: I call the Air Force Personnel Center (hereafter known as AFPC) to find out why Tony didn’t get an assignment and am told to wait a week or two and we should see an assignment for him.

Wednesday: The answer from Tuesday isn’t sitting right with me. I start doing some research and find out Tony should have gotten his assignment the same time as me, if they were going to give him one. Call/e-mail a few friends and one of them calls AFPC. Find out late Wednesday afternoon that Tony was not given an assignment because “manning didn’t support” one for him. The girl who called for me asked, “What are her options?” And is told, “She can go unacompanied.” In other words…without my family for two years (or I could take the girls with me and be single mom for 3 years). My other option: separate just 3 short years away from retirement. Since the hold up is on Tony’s side, I call his supervisor and ask him to check into it for us.

Thursday: Spend most of the day trying to get somebody from AFPC to answer a damn phone call or e-mail. After not hearing anything from anyone all day, I send my boss an e-mail detailing everything that had happened up to that point. He forwards it to my Career Field Manager (this is the guy who is basically over my entire career field…he does not make assignments, but might be able to have some influence over everything.

Thursday night: Somebody from AFPC FINALLY calls my husband’s supervisors and tell him they are 150% manned in his career field at Aviano. They can’t possibly send 1 more person over there, but will look again to see what they can do. Later night my Career Field Manager calls…I tell him the whole story. He promises to try to find out something today and call me back (we actually had a fairly long chat).

Today: I’ve heard nothing. It’s 9:22 pm and I’m sure I won’t hear anything tonight. I may try to call my Career Field Manager in the morning just to get some sort of a status update.

This whole thing sucks. Just sucks. 😦

March 3, 2009

Random Thoughts

Filed under: General — by Sandie @ 8:43 pm
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To answer the big question from yesterday: YES we will still be able to take our Disney trip (thank goodness!). We’re hoping this will push Ashley to decide to come with us, even if it’s just for the week we’re going. It’ll be our last big “hooray” before we leave the country. And as my friend pointed out: we’ll be able to visit EuroDisney now.

I’m trying to get to a good spot in regards to this move to Italy. So far, I’m still in the freaked out stage and can’t get past why it’s a bad thing. I keep telling myself all the good things about it…what a wonderful experience this will be for the kids (and us!). It just throws a HUGE monkey wrench into some of my other plans (guess that’s what I get for trying to plan!). However, I know I’ll have plenty of blog fodder once we get over there!

Last weekend was weird weather-wise. Saturday we had severe thunderstorms, tornado warnings, and a whole bunch of rain dumped on us. Sunday it snowed. Yes, you read that right…it SNOWED in Georgia! Not once, but TWICE! The kids got to play in it for a little bit and it all melted by the time we went to bed. I got to go in two hours late because of it though (school, however, started right on time!). Seems fitting that it snowed the first year we lived here and now it snowed the last year we lived here.

I’m perplexed that the school systems down here seem to have not heard of “delay start.” Schools all around us closed on Monday because of the snow. Well, not really because of the snow, but because they were worried about the ice that may form on the roads overnight. In all the discussions about whether or not our county schools should remain open, nobody thought of delaying the start of the day. It was either the schools will be closed or they will be open. I don’t get it (and yesterday would have been the perfect day to delay the start of school, even by an hour!).

I don’t have much randomness in me today. I’m overwhelmed thinking of all the things we have to get done in the next few months. The time is going to fly by! Yikes!

Wanna join in the random fun? Click on the button above! Don’t walk…run!

March 2, 2009

So many emotions, so little time

Filed under: General,Spin — by Sandie @ 9:24 pm
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I got a phone call from the personnel office today. It went something like this:

Her: Hi, Sgt Rios! I’ve got your assignment RIP right here!
Me: My what????
Her: Your assignment RIP.
Me: Excuse me???
Her: You didn’t know?
Me: No! Where to?
Her: I’m sorry! I thought you knew! You’re going to Aviano! (For those that don’t know, Aviano is in Italy.)

And that’s how I found out the next 2-3 years of my life will be drastically different than what I originally thought! One issue we still need to get straight: they didn’t give Tony an assignment (normally the Air Force tries to keep military couples together. Generally, when one gets an assignment, the other will get one at the same time. Not sure what happened here!). I need to make some phone calls tomorrow to find out what we need to do.

Meanwhile, I have so many emotions I’m feeling. For one: I HAVE TO SELL MY HOUSE!!!! YIKES!! Luckily, the housing market here isn’t as bad as in some areas, so we shouldn’t have our asses handed to us while trying to sell it. However, this house is nowhere near “For Sale” condition and we don’t have long to get it there!

Also, this really couldn’t come at a worse time for us. Ashley and Amanda will both graduate while we’re over there. Air fare is expensive. Air far for 5 people is something I don’t even want to think about. Missing either of their graduations isn’t particularly appealing either. 😦

It’ll be my first “real” job in my current career field. And I’ll be in charge (well, there’s a Captain that’ll be “in charge”). I’ll be way out of my comfort zone. And chances are highly likely that I’ll “get” to deploy while I’m there.

And then there’s the one emotion I wasn’t really expecting: I don’t want to leave here. Never in a million years did I think I’d say that, but this place has grown on me. We’ve built a good life for ourselves here. We’ve got good friends, a great church family, love the schools/daycare. I’m not ready to leave.

We haven’t broken the news to the kids yet. I don’t know what we’re going to tell them. Angelina and Amber won’t care. Alyssa is going to have issues…especially since it means moving further away from her best friend who moved to San Antonio two years ago.

*SIGH*

I was just over at http://www.spriteskeeper.com and noticed that this week’s Spin Cycle is about adventures. And if moving half way across the world to a country I’ve never been and who’s language I don’t speak with 3 kids, a dog, and a husband doesn’t qualify as an adventure, I don’t know what does! So, I’m making this my Spin Cycle post too…which will hopefully get me back on the Spin Cylce wagon!).

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