Sandie Simply Says

January 28, 2009

“I started today.”

Filed under: General — by Sandie @ 10:03 pm
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I remember a time when those words brought nothing but sorrow and pain for me. It was when we were trying to get pregnant the second time. It took us almost 2 years. According to the doctor, we had “unexplained secondary infertility.” In other words, they had no freaking idea why it took us so long. In Nov 2003 had a laparoscopy where they killed some endometriosis and confirmed that my tubes were open. Apparently, that did the trick because less than 2 weeks later, I was pregnant with Angelina.

Over the last couple years, those words have brought a feeling of relief. We’d decided after Angelina that we were done with babies. Imagine our surprise a couple years later when I found out I was pregnant with Amber! After Amber, we again said we were done with babies. This time, Tony made the appointment for a vasectomy. We went for the initial consultation and even scheduled the appointment for the big day. As the day got closer, I started feeling more and more uneasy about it. Two days before his scheduled procedure I asked him to cancel it. And this is how I know he truly loves me: he did. Didn’t even argue with me about it, just did it. I knew then that I didn’t want more babies, but wasn’t sure I wouldn’t want another one in the future.

And now, here we are two years later. My monthly “friend” came today (4 days late, I might add) and I’m feeling a weird sense of relief and sadness all rolled into one. At the same time, Tony has started throwing out comments about another baby…maybe try one more time for a boy.

And I’m starting to think about it. Unbelievably, I’m starting to think about it.

I don’t think we’re ready yet. Not in light of the events of last week. But maybe in a few months.

That may give me time to come to my senses.

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January 27, 2009

Randomly Random…It’s Tuesday!

Filed under: General — by Sandie @ 9:54 pm

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I don’t understand people who can’t follow simple laws: if you can’t drive completely through an intersection, you have no business being in it. I don’t care if your light is green! You wait behind the BIG, THICK white line until you CAN make it all the way through the intersection. When the light turns yellow or red, and there are other cars blocking the intersection, this does not give you free reign to enter the intersection since “everyone else is doing it.” Sitting at the light for an extra 2 minutes while it cycles through again is not going to make you late for work. And if it does, we’ll you should have left work earlier!! When you block the intersection, not only are you preventing ME to get through it AFTER MY LIGHT HAS ALREADY TURNED GREEN, you are creating unsafe conditions for emergency response vehicles. How would you feel if your loved one died because the emergency workers were delayed by your stinking car blocking the intersection?

My post about Denise has generated 63 hits, all from google searches on her name. I think it’s a testament to the wonderful person she was that so many people searched for information on her death. Her mom and son left comments too.

I can’t imagine how unbelievably hard it must be to lose a child of any age. I hope I never have to find out.

I need to learn not to engage my co-worker in conversations. They always end up the same way. For example: Today he mentioned something about how the Secret Service failed to act when the Iraqi journalist threw a shoe at Bush and that it could have been something more dangerous than a shoe. I said that I’d read an article about that and that there were actually very few Secret Service agents in the room because security was being provided by the Iraqis (a common occurrence) and that everyone had been screened before entering the room so they had the reasonable expectation that nothing more dangerous than a shoe was being thrown. So he says, “Well, it was dangerous…the guy threw a shoe, it could have been something else.” I should have just dropped it there, but noooooo I have to go on and explain AGAIN that they had the reasonable expectation that it was safe and it was, in fact, nothing but a shoe. And then the best part: my OTHER co-worker jumps in and said, “Yeah, they could have hidden something in the room.” I turned back to my desk after that comment and refused to engage in further conversation on the subject, but in my mind I’m thinking, “Are you freaking kidding me?? Do you think they would go through all the trouble of screening the people, but NOT screen the room?” I really think these people are watching too many movies and their lines of reality and fantasy have blurred.

I wish I could access WordPress (or any blogging site) from work. I’d be so much more consistent at posting if I could. Of course, I’d be a lot less productive, which is probably why they block them in the first place.

My Christmas tree is still up. Every day I look at it and think “I need to take that down,” but then I remember the boxes are in the shed and decide to just do it later. I figure if I put it off long enough, I can just leave it up for next Christmas.

Want more randomness? Head over to Keely’s place.

January 26, 2009

Two plus two equals what??

Filed under: General — by Sandie @ 9:24 pm

Normally, I would be writing a HASAY update today. However, I’m taking a HASAY break this week and will update next week. Thursday and Friday were stressful in my house. A “I-thought-my-marriage-was-ending” stressful. You know how sometimes you go along thinking 2+2=4? You spend every day secure in the knowledge that 2+2=4. Then you wake up one day and discover that 2+2 doesn’t equal 4 at all. Suddenly, 2+2=Monday. That’s where we were on Thursday and part of Friday.

We’re OK now. We talked, we cried, and we talked some more. We said things we haven’t been able to say to each other for a long time. And we came out on the other side stronger for it. I feel like I have my husband back and I never really realized I was missing him. In the end, I think we just let life get in the way of our relationship. It’s easy to do with kids, jobs, and everything else life throws at you. Somewhere along the way, we forgot to focus on our marriage and each other.

We spent Friday afternoon reconnecting. It was just what we needed. My hope is that we don’t lose focus again. Or if we do, that we’re able to pull it back before we reach the edge of the cliff again.

January 25, 2009

Spin Cycle: The Soundtrack of My Life

Filed under: Spin — by Sandie @ 9:50 pm
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Trisha Yearwood sings a song called The Song Remembers When and I’ve always thought how true the song is. I’m sure I’ve heard a million songs in my lifetime, but there are a few that always take me back to another time, no matter where I am when I hear them. The following are a few of my favorites.

My high school years will forever be defined by this song:

Every time I hear that song, it reminds me of my best friend from high school, Ken. Ken did not have the best home life, so we spent many a Friday and Saturday night driving around town simply avoiding his house. We’d drive and drive just waiting for Biz Markie to come on the radio. And when he did, we’d blast the radio, roll down the windows (even in the dead of winter), and scream the words for all the world to hear. In that moment, we’d both forget all our problems and revel in the simple joy of belting out a good song (OK, so maybe it’s not a “good” song, but we loved it!). Sadly, Ken and I lost touch a few years after high school. I still think of him whenever I happen to hear Biz Markie on the radio (or whenever I watch The Little Mermaid, but this post is about songs, not movies…I’ll have to explain that one later).

This song takes me back to weekends at the club at Shemya:

This song was played every Friday and Saturday night I can remember during my time at Shemya. And every time the song played, I danced to it. My dance partner was always the same: Brian. We were nothing more than friends. I was dating someone who refused to dance with me (I should have dumped the loser then!) and Brian was married, but on the brink of divorce. So, we danced (and I always sang along). The song spoke to both of us, though I think it said different things. Brian and I have both moved on to bigger, better, and happier times, but once I hear the opening bars to this song I’m instantly back on the dance floor, swaying slowly, singing along.

Last, but definitely not least is this song:

Armegeddon came out shortly after I returned from Korea. Tony was still in Korea and we weren’t sure just where our relationship was going (if someone had told me back then that I’d be married to him less than a year later, I probably would have laughed in their face!). Whenever this song played on the radio, it made me think of him. To me, this song is “our song” and a little over 10 years later, I still don’t wanna miss a thing.

This Spin Cycle has been brought to you by Jen at http://www.spriteskeeper.com. Wanna join in the fun? Click on over!

January 21, 2009

A Twofer Today

Filed under: General — by Sandie @ 7:07 pm

I was just over at Jim’s blog (Irregularly Periodic Ruminations) and saw this nerd test. I just had to take it to see how I scored.

Here’s me:


NerdTests.com says I'm a Cool Non-Nerd.  Click here to take the Nerd Test, get nerdy images and jokes, and talk to others on the nerd forum!

Yay! I’m a Cool Non-Nerd!

Spin Cycle: A Poem

Filed under: Spin — by Sandie @ 6:41 pm

This week’s Spin Cycle (brought to you by http://www.spriteskeeper.com) assignment was a tough one for me. This week we were asked to write a poem. I’m terrible at writing poetry. I’m not even particularly fond of reading it. Sure, there are poetic phrases that tug at my heart strings and full poems that speak to me, but chances are you won’t catch me sitting down with a book of poetry to read (unless I’m being forced to as part of some sort of assignment). I’ve been fretting since last Friday over what I was going to write. Sure, I could have just dug up one of my favorite poems and posted that, but so far all the other Spins I’ve read have been original creations, so I decided I needed to give it a shot. And then it came to me…why not write a Haiku! Don’t have to worry about rhyming any words and follow a simple format. And the best part…I only needed to come up with THREE LINES! I did a quick Google search to remind me of the correct format (it’s been awhile since I’ve had to write a Haiku…I won’t say HOW long but remember it’s been almost 20 years since I graduated high school and I know I didn’t write any there or since!). My subject/inspiration was easy. I just used the people who inspire me every day and who keep me going. Without further ado, I present to you my Spin this week:

My Girls

Funny, loving, smart
Beautiful in my eyes
Always in my heart

the-girls

January 20, 2009

Random Tuesday Thoughts

Filed under: General — by Sandie @ 9:10 pm

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I must say…I LOVE Random Tuesday Thoughts. Tuesdays are my looooong days (leave house at 6:30ish a.m. and don’t get home until 8ish p.m.) and I’m often way too tired to put coherent thoughts together. Do you wanna play along? If so, visit Keely here, grab the button and let the randomness begin!!

I did not watch the inauguration today. At least not on purpose. Does that make me a bad American? Unpatriotic? We have a website we can go to through work to watch TV (limited to CNN, FoxNews, CBS, and The Weather Channel). Two of the guys in my office were watching it and one guy’s player was a few seconds behind the other one. So the National Anthem went something like this: “Oh, Oh, say, say, can, can…” You get the idea. Normally I LOVE listening to the National Anthem. It’s one of my all-time favorite songs (especially when someone sings it right!), but I had to get up and leave. I couldn’t take the echoing anymore.

I had a “coaching” tonight at Weight Watchers. That’s where my territory manager comes in, listens to my meeting, and then gives me feedback afterwards. She gave me a glowing review. *preen*

I’m glad today didn’t turn out as bad as it could have. I got to work and realized I’d left my work laptop at home. So, I had to drive all the way back home to get it. When I got home, I remembered something else I needed, grabbed it and started back to work. After about a mile, I realized I forgot the stinkin’ laptop AGAIN! I seriously thought about calling my boss and asking for the day off!

Lost starts again tomorrow night. I’m not as excited as I have been in past years. Maybe I’ll get excited once I start watching again.

I think I’m addicted to Facebook. I found two people I haven’t heard from since high school. How weird is it that they’re both in DC and both work in the same area (and they didn’t know each other in high school)?

I can’t believe my 20 year reunion is just a little over a year away. It doesn’t seem like that long!

I need some magic way to get my 4 year old to go to bed and go to sleep before 10pm every night. I can get her into the bed, but she spends the next 2 hours figuring out reasons to get up or just plain playing in her room.

I think I’m out of thoughts. Or my brain is just asleep already. Either way, I’m done. 🙂

January 19, 2009

HASAY Update: Week 3…OK, maybe Hannah Montana doesn’t rock

Filed under: General,HAYSAY,Weight Loss — by Sandie @ 10:12 am

I had a great HASAY week! I journalled every day and even managed to cut back on my Diet Coke intake. By Friday, I was down 1.6 pounds. Yay me, I rock!

And then came the Hannah Montanta sleepover. I started out doing OK. I mean, I brought a freaking veggie tray! Somewhere around 8pm I lost my resolve. I was exhausted and succumbed to the pizza. And the chocolate. Did I mention we had chocolate? I had some that couldn’t fit in the piñata, so I brought the extras. Who am I kidding, I had a lot of candy left over. Well, I had a lot of candy left over. And the Diet Coke was free-flowing. I needed something to keep my energy level up!

I woke up the next morning determined I wasn’t going to let one night ruin my whole week. I was adamant I wasn’t taking any of the leftover pizza home (we had 4 pizzas left!). How two pizzas, an entire order cheesesticks, and cupcakes made it into my car, I’ll never know. But just because I brought them home doesn’t mean I need to eat them, right? Wrong. I was too exhausted to do anything but heat up some pizza so that’s what I had for lunch and dinner.

But Sunday was a new day, right? Wrong again. The Mexican buffet and Chinese buffet seemed to call out my name. So we went. We hit one for lunch and the other for dinner.

But this is a new week. I’m back to journalling again.

Weight change this week: -.2
Total weight loss: -3

I pretty much already recapped my goals from last week. I made it to the gym twice last week (I skipped it on Friday to do some last minute preparations for the sleepover). I did remember to take my vitamin every day!

Goals for this week will be the same as last week:

  • Journal every day
  • Get to the gym 3 times this week
  • Drink no more than 32 oz of Diet Coke a day
  • Take a multivitamin every day
  • I mentioned above that I weighed myself on Friday. I actually weight myself every morning. Generally, this is not recommended while you are trying to lose weight. There are so many factors that play into what you weigh on any individual day that it’s difficult to determine what the overall result will be for the week. Also, if we see a gain, we tend to beat ourselves up. If we see a loss, we give ourselves permission to cheat “just a little.” I generally am able to treat that number on the scale realistically and use it mainly as a guide for what I need to do that day. So, while I don’t usually recommend it for everyone, it works for me.

    January 18, 2009

    Hannah Montana Rocks!

    Filed under: General — by Sandie @ 10:39 pm
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    At least for a bunch of 6-8 year old Brownies!

    We had 14 girls and 8 moms at the sleepover. Amazingly enough, we made it through the ENTIRE night and did not have a SINGLE major blow up! There were a couple of minor tiffs between the girls, but nothing that wasn’t resolved quickly with some redirection. There were, however, a few fits thrown. Some small, some not so small (one girl I think really needs to learn that 1) the world does not revolve around her and 2) she can’t always get her way, but I digress!).

    I was in charge of the food. All week I was stressing out thinking we wouldn’t have enough food. As it turns out, I was wrong about that! I ordered 8 large pizzas and 2 orders of cheesesticks from Papa Johns. We also had popcorn, nachos, soft pretzels and cupcakes. Oh and I bought a vegetable tray at the last minute (had to feel like we weren’t giving them complete junk!). The only thing we completely ran out of was the veggie tray!

    We had a fun-filled evening for the girls with plenty to keep them busy!

    They made autograph books:

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    And body glitter:

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    We played the Rhythm Cup Game:

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    And Spoons (I forgot to take a picture of the Spoons game in action).

    We had a piñata:

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    I know, I know…we had the lame pull string piñata. I figured it was much safer since we were inside and there was no way we were going outside (it was 16 degrees out!).

    The girls gave each other manicures:

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    And makeovers:

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    And we had a TON of door prizes:

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    Eventually, we all settled in for a Hannah Montana marathon:

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    The girls all fell asleep sometime around midnight and a few of them were up at 6:30 the next morning! Nobody slept past 7:30 and we were cleaned up and out of there by 9:30. The night went well and everyone had fun. The moms all decided that next time we’ll rent a couple hotel rooms somewhere. We’ll lock the girls in one room and the moms will be in another…with alcohol!

    As an aside, I’m amazed that Alyssa is smiling in every one of these pictures. Those who have known me for awhile can vouch for the fact that she almost never smiles in pictures! I never even had to ask her to smile (normally I have to bribe her), she did it willingly every time!

    January 17, 2009

    By jove, I think she’s got it!

    Filed under: General — by Sandie @ 10:10 pm

    Look! Look right over there —–>

    You may have to scroll down a bit to see it, but it’s there!

    AND the link even works!

    Yahoooo!!!!

    I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to do it again, but I did it!!

    And I survived the Hannah Montana Sleepover! I’ll post all about it tomorrow. I’m still trying to recover today and adding the HASAY banner spent all remaining brain cells I have left.

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