Sandie Simply Says

November 9, 2008

What might’ve been…

Filed under: General — by Sandie @ 9:32 pm
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Being alone with my thoughts is not always a good thing. Tonight, I think, is one of those nights. An old flame “friended” me on Facebook today. Things between us didn’t end horridly and we were friends long before we were lovers, and so we managed to remain friends. Not like we were before, but we do exchange Christmas cards every year.

Looking through his pictures in his profile brought back a flood of memories. I was quite taken aback by the rush of feelings that came with it. Oh, how I loved him. And oh, how I missed him. How things ended between us is hard to explain and at times I don’t even know if I completely understand. In a way, I guess we just grew apart. Or maybe we just grew up. The whole thing was just complicated. I’m not sure I ever stopped loving him though.

And now, tonight, sitting alone with my thoughts, I can’t help but think what might have been. What if he hadn’t gotten married? What if I hadn’t met and fell in love with my husband? Would we be together still? What would our life be like? I try not to let my thoughts go there because, it just doesn’t matter any more. It all brings to mind one of my favorite songs by Little Texas.

And like the song says, “We’ll never know what might’ve been.”

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2 Comments »

  1. I’ve got a “might have been” … but my guess is that he’d know as much about a computer as I do about pulling an engine. And it’s better that he’s out there and I’m out here. Sometimes I look at the stars and think that we are under the same sky, the same stars … and that’s just enough.

    Comment by Debbie — November 13, 2008 @ 12:22 pm |Reply

  2. Oh this is sad! I’ve got one, too, but I could never even begin to talk or type about him.

    Comment by Ginger — November 13, 2008 @ 3:59 pm |Reply


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